Uneven ground?! Eventually.
Which is still a far cry from where I need to be, and fast, but so much better then where I was.
It's hard not looking at a scale, or lamenting being so far from my goals, whatever they may be. But I'm getting there. It isn't easy, but there are still things that I have and will continue to do to make it easier - maybe listing them here, they can help someone else, should they "stumbleupon" (lol) this post.
1) Working on one thing at a time. Of all the times I've tried to change my physical habits, this is the first time I didn't try to change everything. Multiple times over, I tried to start working out, made extreme changes to my diet, tried to do it all - and failed. In a short period of time, I'd get burnt out, and revert back to what I did previously - eat frosting while I sat on the couch.
|I'll miss you,|
my horribly carbonated friend.
2) NOT comparing myself to other people. There have been times that I would kick myself. I would feel jealousy, then guilt, because there were moments when I would look at people - both strangers, and those I know and love - and wonder why I wasn't like them. Thinner, stronger, faster, stronger willed. Rather then fix it, I would spiral into a pit of despair,which would lead me back to that couch with the frosting.
No more. I am "behind," and that's ok. "Better late then never" is a phrase for a reason - and just because my numbers on a scale may be higher, while my numbers on the machines are lower, does not make me a lesser person, or an uglier person. All it means is that I'm a work in progress- which gives me something to strive for. And my goal may still be "behind" a lot of other people - but it works for me. And if I'm happy when I reach it, isn't that all that matters?
3) Music fixes everything. Or, at least, makes it easier. Sometimes running blows, especially when I'm doing so alone. Listening to music, or videos on youtube, can make what would feel like hours of effort into the short period of time it actually is.
|These are why I can't have nice things. Among other reasons.|
Likewise, even when I am busy at school, I can use it to work on my training as well. I wear ankle weights when I'm there now - that way when I'm walking, it causes just a little bit more strain. When I go upstairs to my classes, I take the actual stairs -which serves the purpose of not only getting me to my classes, but helps me work out on the way. Everything can be utilized in a way to help meet my goal - it's just a matter of using my grey matter to figure out how.
There are still other tricks I've yet to find. Other means of making this rough journey easier, but I'll find them. And even if I don't - the end result will make whatever hardship I feel worth it. It always is.
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